Last day of semester 6

After my Emergency & Disaster test, lucky its mcq, if not I will die on the spot because I didn’t prepare for this time de test (busy with Research & Management project).

Next is our evaluation time… My beloved tutor, Ms H said that want us to go to MPH (multipurpose hall) to express our feelings through the evaluation. 64 of us take a chair and make a big round so that can see each other.

1 by 1 told and share their 3 years experience in this college. Some of them cried, it’s normal what, girls… Then its my turn now, I said something and all of them laugh, yea, I thank to my principle and those tutors that choose me when I came here to interview, and I told them that I appreciate all of my group girls, especially my tutors… Besides that, I did mention about my ex-best friends, sad sad sad…

30 minutes later, is 1 of my ex-best friend turn, she did mention my name, that time I drinking water, suddenly all of them look at me because she mention my name, I also get shock, what lar… She said : “ I know im a hot temper, every time Lainny come to me and keep disturb me, joking with me, kacau me when I study, I scolded her( me), so here I want to say sorry to her.” I don’t mind that she scold me, because its my fault keep disturb her and cari pasal with her, >.< I didn’t meant anything, because I just want to release her stress, that’s why I kacau her… ( ^^!!!)

The other ex-best friend also mentions my name again. This time more worst. Hahaha…
She said she wont forget and thank me because always disturb and kacau her at class. That 1 is true, because I sat beside her, always try to make her awake but at last I get scolded by her, pity me wei… But any how, I really love my ex-best friends…

After she end her speech, I asked my Tha
Tha, until now, the end of the semester I also
Didn’t and can’t find out why they leave me and
break the relationship that had build from the 1st
day I came to this college until semester 3. Tha
Tha said I different with them (in character). For
me is ok, that time even though I had bf, but I still
go out with them, and always stick to each other.
Maybe it’s the reason why we break off. Tha Tha
also said that if she didn’t know about me or be

friends with me, she will think that im a very open
minded and always go clubbing that type of girl.
What lar… After she close to me, she know that
Im a ‘naughty’ girl. Whatever... Haiz...

She always get scolded by me, for example
what had happened yesterday evening. I already
tired & sleepy +++, she ask me to accompany her
go old town to cut her hair. After reach there, we
had our dinner 1st at mamak stall then we go to a
saloon. After gao dim she cut her hair (she not
satisfied with d hair cut) I want to go to Cherry
Cake House buy my Shin Chan de small cake Rm2.70 to celebrate alone tomorrow after my test. (What to do, alone/ single is like that de lar).

Then go back to our hostel, at the lift she said she lost Se lost her key and can’t find it. What the… Then both of us have to walk to the old town again, Haiz… Search for the key like treasure hunt, wu liao… Cant find all the place that we had pass by of stop, the result is bo… She already gan jiong because have to pay Rm50 if lost the key. Reached or hostel, at the waiting lobby there, she asked juniors that on duty there whether they saw her key bo, yea, its at the table.. What the what the… I told her next time I’ll look after her key and phone every time go out with her, hope it wont happen again… She really qian da... >.<

O ok, come back to the evaluation thing, after the last person finished her speech, our mentor came and told us a bad news. She going to leave us and will go to Middle East to work and earn money there for her degree and family. So good that her husband will allowed her to work there, this kind of husband hard to find ho… Majority of us cried, including me and her, we wish her have a safe journey and good luck in her future. She still young, around 35 years old, had 3 sons if I not mistaken. She give us lots of advice before she went back home. We won’t forget her that we had voted her as BEST SMILE TUTOR and she won during the College Nite. Yea, that’s our beloved Mentor who take care of us from the 1st day we came until now…

After that, we all hugging each other, I saw my ex-best friend, she told me that she will remember me, and I hug her… owh... T.T

I still at this hospital 5 years, after that I also will plan want to go Arab to earn money and further my study. Its better that I don’t have bf or husband before I finished my Degree and so on. But who knows, God will plan everything, maybe I get married after my diploma (I hope it won’t happen)… So that’s my objective and hope that I can full fill it.

I’m sorry

I really felt so sorry to 3 people in my life…

1st is my mum, I know I didn’t something that she don’t like (have a bf during this nursing course). But im sure she already know about it, she just kept quiet. After she sees my result, she didn’t say anything because maybe she thinks that if I got bf, it also won’t affect my result and study.

2nd person is my 1st bf, imagine that, he love an 85kg girl that fat and the face accumulate with pimples and all. Yea, I really appreciate him a lot. He is the 1st guy make me want to change and give me a lot of support. He is also the only guy give me flowers and all the things that I like (im not a material girl), he really love me, until 1 day, I break up with him because of few reason.

After that, until now I still remember how I try to make him hate me and won’t contact me. I feel bad for myself, he really a good guy.Until 1 day, he added me in Friendster (after I & ½ year) and we chat through msn, happy and glad that he became a successful chef.

The 3rd person is my latest bf, he really treats me well until already plan want to marry me, but at last I choose to let him go. I feel that he really too good to me, or maybe he wanted to marry me ASAP, I can’t do it, cause I still want to further my study and earn lot of money for my family.

Yea, I can’t do that and I don’t want to marry too early…So that’s all for now…

Uptown girl Vs Downtown girl

<-- Downtown Girl

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dis pic consider Uptown girl gua

What I know about Uptown girl? After I came here to study, then only I know the difference between Uptown girl and Downtown girl.

The biggest difference for me is they will waste lot of money on those things that they shouldn’t buy. Agree? They didn’t know how hard to earn money. And they spending their parent’s money like their parents own 1 bank, I can’t do that, really…

Maybe not all, but can see most of them are like that. In 5 hours, they can spend more than rm3000. Crazy, really crazy…

For uptown girls, all also must be branded, must have lots and lots pairs of sandals, high heels, cloths, dress, jeans, make-up stuff and many more. Make-up, yuck, I hate it…

I have a good example here; I won’t tell who she is. Haiz…

God oh God, and some more, I cant say already, I and she totally different. I’m rather become a Downtown girl more than Uptown girl…

She taught me must buy this type of cloths bag and other things. For me it’s really fan (make my brain crack), have to think this or try this and that, if the cloths not nice must change it and bla bla bla… Wasting my time… Wear anything that you feel comfortable, am I right?

Ya, that’s what I’m going to do after this, I don’t care what she will tell me, as long as I’m happy with it.

Beside that, I wondering... ( it’s out of the topic ok…)

I’m wondering; why some people, I mean a girl (uptown girl) after break up, still receive any gift from her ex-bf, such as expensive or latest 3G phone, branded or limited perfume, and many more? Duhh… What lar… I really wont agree what the particular girl do, I know lar the guy got lot of money (I’m not jealous ok), but you should have a little honour? Right?

That guy also 1 kind, the girl (ex-gf) say like this or like that then really go and buy for her. I know that guy still love her, but the problem is the girl didn’t love or like him from the 1st time they become bf and gf. I pity that guy, really…

That girl can say that didn’t really experience like what I had experience before. I’m very glad and happy that my parents teach me how to be a better person, and teach me how to save money (that’s the most important). So seriously I’m a kiamsap (I guess is kedekut gua) person. Hehe…

Erm… until now, maybe I will continue my story later… about Uptown girl Vs Downtown girl.

Thanks 4 reading my blog… >.<

Love u… >.<

About friendship again.............

Joo Joo and me ( my 18th birthday )

Today, Joo Joo seems like got problem, cause she didn’t talk much at class and her face show that she not happy. So as usual, I turn over and kacau her and Tha Tha… I can feel that she have a problem with her best friends, I guess so…

Friends friends friends...

They bring you happiness and sometimes will hurt you. Ya, for those who had their best friends, I hope that you all can appreciate them and don’t let your buddies disappointed.

I guess her problem same like mine, think back past 2 years, ya, its same…

I don’t understand why girls like to fighting or arguing or always gossip with other people and many more. I can see that lots of my male friends won’t have any problem with their best friends, why girls cannot? Is it because our some kind of genetic is not the same and it really make a big different between boys and girls.

I also a girl, but a bit more tomboyish. Now I still keep in touch with my primary and secondary school mates, most of them are guys. My mum knows about it and she didn’t say anything because she knows I won’t like them (I guess only).

Every time I go back my hometown, or when I having my annual leave or CNY leave, my best friend, Mr. A will call me or message me and ask me out yum cha. But every time also I will say the same answer : my mum not allow lar, or I’m busy help my mum do something and more. Actually my mum wants me to go out, but no way, I rather spend my day with my mum, bro and sis. My family is more important than myself. Friends or boyfriend we can find, but our family… Ya, I’m sure you know what I mean…

Ok, come back to my friend de problem… haiz…

You can’t do anything if some one doesn’t want to listen to you or she/they suddenly ignore you. I tell you, it really hurt… You will feel even more hurt if u put 100% trust on them, trust me…

So I advice her, just let it be, and just be yourself. They/ she not really understand you and the person will regret one day after what she had done to you. After that, she ok a bit already. I’m happy that she can laugh and smile like usual with me, my Yang Yang and Tha Tha.

I also happy that my mum understand me that I got lot of male friends, at least she not like my dad that wont allow me to talk with other guys… haiz…
I’m still her little girl… What to do…

2/3/09

I swear I wont apply any nail polish on my finger nail already, very embarrassing… some more 1st time I colour my finger nail, look like a ghost as what some one commented on me. Haiz…

Yea, 2day at class super duper tired, In pain and sleepy, I got reason 1, it is because I’m weak start from yesterday maybe until 5 days later. Get what I mean?

After I remove the nail polish, I went back to my class, my tutor give assignments again, need to finished it this Saturday and present it. Its really crazy and I already tired go here go there just want to buy my formal cloths, high heels and the skirt just for our research & management presentation. Crazy...

My tutor in charge said our result will come out this evening, but see see she ffk us, said 2mr only will give us. So we wait and see…

Joo Joo, Tha Tha and I really hope that we can pass our test. And I and Tha Tha promise God that if we pass, we will fasting for 5 days. Hope God will fulfill our wish…

I’m going back this Saturday, miss my family, already 1 month didn’t go back and hug my mum…

Oh ya, if I pass my test, I will fasting 5 days, want to eat my tomyam with my ex-room mate! That’s the most important thing… But I also hope can celebrate with my frens. Hope that my friends will free on that day and ask me out/ date. haiz... if im alone also no problem, i still have my 'hubby' 2 hug and sleep with it. Lolz...

Be a Class rep again

For the second time, I have been nominated to become class rep on next 4 month, wtf……..

I hate to be a class rep, you know why, because I will very stress in handling my 63 of my group girls and its not a easy job to control them. I cry once that time on last dec at my class because they all not pay attention to me and didn’t cooperate among our self. Most of them…

When I become a class rep, I will be stricter and will try my best to be a responsible and reliable leader of my Group63. On that month I really stress, one of the reason is my assistant leader also didn’t cooperate and help me. Lucky I still have few friends that help me and give emotional support to me. If not, everyday sure I will cry (behave like a little girl, haiz…)

1 day, my tutor leave us at demo room and ask us to practice some nursing procedures and stay back until 5pm. After that I found out got some / few of them not inside the demo room, so my face turned red and I shouting at them ask them to silence ( shut up—because that time they all very noisy). I take 1 by 1 their attendance and list out those not there. Got 5 people are not there, so I jus simply said that I will report the tutor. After I go back to my room, this people see knock my door and tell me reasons why they not there. I just accept it and that’s the last chance for them.

My friends can’t believe that I really look very fierce when I give instruction or tell any announcement in front of them. I also can’t believe it…Is it true that a Leo (im 1 of them) really have a good leadership. Is it?

I know that if I’m not strict, they all won’t follow what I said. So I must do the ‘hard’ way not the ‘soft’ way. I’m very fierce when I handle or control them (just same like my dad how he control me when I was young age that time >.<).

When I was the class rep that time, on that month got my final test3 and my practical exam (both also very important exam in my semester5), some more it’s the 1st time I become a leader for such a big group. Can’t imagine it, really stressful month for me. But lucky my result for both exams also OK…

The unbelievable part is, when my class had an open evaluation, everyone have to stand up and talk about how’s our semester5. When it’s my turn, the first word I said is ‘SORRY’, and than I told them that: “im sorry if I hurt your feeling when I became class rep, I know I’m very strict to you all, but hope you all forgive me.”

After finished our oral evaluation, everybody give a hug to each other, and im very happy that they all said im a good leader. My nose kembang ad… duhhh…

Another thing is when my tutor in charge sees me personally to take my semester5 evaluation, she wrote comment at my report said im a responsible leader, walau, whole night I can’t sleep wei…

So now, on June, Class Rep again…Lucky I only in-charge of Assuntarian (27 people only). Majority of them will corporate with me, hope so and wish me good luck den.

On the end of June is the most important test (Government test). See, this time also got exam, errr…

Its ok, I think I will think positively and will try my best to ‘control’ them again.

Friends Vs Alone Vs Tomyam?

Is it friends very important in someone’s / a human’s life?

Maybe 80-90% of people in the World will answer friends is very important in their daily life. For me, now, in my room alone, my room mates all gone out to find their friends, left me alone with my ‘square hubby’, my Shin Chan comics, my doraemon and my laptop.

While listening to Britney’s the same song ‘Break the Ice’ continuously shake my head and body, the song repeated until now (OMG, something wrong with me ad), I think, is it necessary I go out from this room and look for my group mates and chit- chat or do other things with they all?

Noooooooooooooo… its ok I think, I can roll on my bed, or I read my comics that haven’t finish read all, or listen to techno songs, or practice to sing my favorites songs, or I should do my past year N-CLEX questions preparation for my government test on end of June, or I should sit down properly than I pray for all of my group girls hope our test 3 all 100% pass and also the Government test (I usually got pray de lar before I sleep), or I should watch the drama that I ad repeat it >50 times.

At last, my 2 room mates came back ad. My Chinese room mate feel want to eat burger, so she ad decide will help me buy 1 special burger. My other Punjabi room mate give suggestion wana watch doesn’t know what title of a Thai ghost movie. So she went up to level 8 borrow the DVD from my Malay friend. I still on my bed writing this blog. See see, talk bout her now she came back ad, not Thai movie, is ‘Congkak’. Haiz… Sure I’m the only 1 will scream n shout n hug my ‘square hubby’ later when I watch with them.

Wait wait wait, am I talking bout Friends Vs Alone? I don’t think so… hehe… sorry, out of topic, forgive me ya…

Ok, for me friends is important, but we sometimes also need to be alone (not 24 hrs alone, then the people will become sot2 ad). And for sure now I didn’t have and I don’t think so I want BEST friends, its not the time yet and maybe after I become a staff nurse than only I can find a true best friend, hope so…

What the… my lips dry up ad… haiz… so after you all finished read my blog, please go and drink water then only continue do your stuff k… Guai…

I want to eat tomyam…………….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok ok, so now I wana eat my burger and watch the congkak and hug my ‘square hubby’…

Thanks 4 read my wu liao de blog…

23/2/2009

Tonight, my mood out again… I feel like want to scream in my room and just ignore about my room mates.I wont write here y my mood is out tonite, cause it P&C ya.. sorry... Tonite i would like to share what had happen today from 8am till 1159hr.
Maybe because too tired or something bothering me… this morning I didn’t asleep at class, my Yang Yang so surprise about it…
In the class during my tea break at 1020hrs, me, Tha Tha n Joo Joo ‘PLAN’ want to open a new ‘business’, a ‘business’ that can earn lots of money and will attract aunties that ‘lonely’ and will make us rich… haha.. Crazy and sot2…
Guys, hope you all don’t mind what I will write after this ok…
Ya, we ‘plan’ want to open a club, inside got pole dancers and wearing boxer ( that’s not my idea, its Joo Joo’s idea)…we imagine and continue imagine until Tha Tha think about other things that make her laugh till people at the back complain she too noisy…
After that. Joo Joo sings a song… Want to know what song she sang? It’s our hospital’s ambulance song. >. She create d lyric by her own, very funny, and write it down, she want me to sing after she taught us how to sing. Haiz… if got chance, I will sing for those who interested want to listen the song created by her. Lol…
To release our stress what…
My ex room mate n lot of my friends also complain the same thing about Miss Y. she sit beside me, and they all wondering why Ms. N (my tutor) caught me and ask me go out wash face, but why Miss Y is safe. Not fair not fair… Today whole day I very alert, every time I turn and see her, see see she sleeping… Yang Yang ask me to write 1 evaluation and tell tutors about that, haiz, its ok, im sure 1 day she will get caught… >.<
Before this, every time I saw her sleeping (close her eyes), I shake her thigh or knock her table. But at last I get scolded by her, she will said: “SAYA TAK TIDO LAR!!” So after few times I kena from her ad, I not dare to wake her up ad… see, not fair right?
Today 3pm - fire drill, run to the hospital side then suddenly heavy rain, all of us get wet and blame on those who organize and plan wana do fire drill on that day. I’m sure I will get sick 2 days later…
After class at 4pm, continue with our research n management group discussing until 6pm. after that I go back to my room and put down my things all at my chair and have to run down to demo room to practice my CPR for adult, child and infant models. (Not the real 1)… practice make perfect…
Come back to my room, on my laptop then start listen jay’s song until now, don’t know how many times it repeated ad…
My Emergency n Disaster assignment’s leader came to my room, and ask me to add on some info, so I divide some works to my partner (Miss Y again). She like um song me ad cause that time she chatting with juniors and I suddenly come and ask her do her part. It’s ok, as long as I do my part. When I talk to her that time, my face looks fierce, until the juniors all also didn’t dare to speak or looking at me. Lol... my face is like that de lar when serious… not my fault...
That’s all for now. I don’t know what I am talking about. I just express out my feeling and tell all of you what had happen today…
Thx… duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……

Paiseh..

Oh my God…

I really not sure what I want now, it seems like I already stupor now and speechless also…

After I survive in this college for 2 years and 8 months, really changed me, become more matured and a stronger person…

What I really appreciate and won’t forget is when my patients smile at me and said: “thank you missy / nurse”. So sweet…

I can’t communicate well with young patients, don’t know is shy or what. But when I communicate with older or eldest patients, I will make them laugh and talk --non stop…

The funniest part is, I really forget my patient (an 80 + years old Popo) that still remember me… she still can recognized me because of my mole at my face…
Haha… Geng lar d Popo…

Really paiseh lar that time…

Before the Popo went back home, hehe, as a responsible and caring nurse, I give health education to her and ask her to take care. Nurse like me sweet right?

Paiseh…

SaD Day...................

Today I feel bad n sad, I don’t know why…

Maybe bcz of some1 that make me very trust her, at last end up with disappointed to her in what she had done…

I treat her consider half good friend, because I think I know her well, trust her n she ok with me but I’m not 100% correct…

Haiz…

I really can speechless whole day at room…

Every time I see her, I feel like uncomfortable not like before this, I’ll chit chat with her in our room n watch movie 2gether…

Maybe I need some time to cool down n don think too much in what she had done…

Maybe that’s the only thing I can do and won’t make me feel guilty cause didn’t pay attention and choi her…

Now I know how other people’s feel and I want to take my words back when I give an announcement about her during our last day of semester 5…

I hope she will change n I’ll give her time…

But now I really need to cool down with her 1st…

Sleeping Beauties ...

Today, as usual… Me, my Yang Yang, my Tha Tha n Joo Joo make jokes again at our own sit...

My place is at the 2nd last role n my Yang Yang sit beside me. Tha Tha sits behind me n Joo Joo sit beside her. Last week very sien coz both of them sit at very front place, so this week 4 of us chat n joking non stop at the back.. What lar…

Only left not more than 2 months me n my entire group63 girl stay together in 1 lecture hall, after that we have to work at hospital to do management there. There will no more chance for us to sit together again, having our time together, and learning n chit chatting…

In four of us, me n Joo Joo is the sleeping beauty plus Yoga whose sit beside me... Walau weh... three of us have our own sleeping de pose… it’s an involuntary n is accidently every time we asleep at class de…

Every morning, I’ll reach my lecture room at 7.55am, very punctual, 5 minutes before class. Haha... I will see Yoga (my ex-best friend n sit beside me 1) n will greet her: “good night Yoga”. Same she will reply me good night… Wu liao… 8am sharp is our ‘sleep time’ as usual…

But not every class I asleep 1, I still a good student de leh… Lucky I never fail before in my whole semester. I also can’t believe that I get number 12 in position at class… Can’t believe cant believe…

So here I would like to tell is that for those who always asleep at class didn’t mean that she/he is weak in subject k, I already prove that... Haha…

I’ve been caught 1 time, for the first time… haha, I won’t forget that day and I have to go out wash my face then only come back to class... so embarrassing…

My Yang Yang will wake me up every time I asleep, she will try to pinch my thigh n shake me. I really appreciate n thank her, if not… Haiz…

Its not to say that my tutor’s way of teaching is very sien or boring, but if I don’t like the subject, I will not pay more attention on to that subject, my brain will slowly shut down n restart again…

It’s my fault coz I asleep at class…

Its very rude if asleep at class n show that you r not respect the tutor that teaching at the front, so I already try my best not to asleep at class n I think I’m improving...

Hehe…

Sorry to all the tutors…………………………..

-The Beginning Of My Life-

I can’t imagine that I will have a chance to study in this college n be a nurse...

After my SPM test, my dad wants me to work in one of the factory at my home town,
Kampar. Everyday I work; every week will have morning shift then noon shift n then night shift.
It’s an electronic factory n what I do everyday is the same thing. On that factory, only I am the youngest worker, all of them are middle age ladies worker n foreigner from Vietnam.
When I started work there until I get my salary, I really feel that is very hard to earn money n learned a lesson – don’t waste your money n use it wisely.

At the factory, I learn how to communicate with older people n respect them. I had good relationship with all the people there, include some Vietnam workers. We treat each other like our own sister. N recently I’ve been told that they had sent back to their own country cause the factory already bankrupt.

I started lost my weight after I work there. From 95 kg till 85kg if I’m not mistaken. So I had been work at factory didn’t mean that I stupid or what, is just that my dad want me to know is very hard to earn money n want me to appreciate it.

N I really don’t like if some one said those aunties or worker whose work at factory is no brain, I sure will scold that particular people that look down of those aunties. Ya, some one said that before n I did correct her.

While waiting for my result, my mum busy looks from advertisement at news paper n try to apply some course to me. She let me choose, want to be a teacher or a nurse or continue study in form 6. Teacher? No way… so I choose to be a nurse…

My mum give me paper n pen n ask me to write my details because that time I didn’t have computer in my house.So after I write, she very excited n post it… I really not very bother about it or my future…

After few weeks, I get feedback from 3 nursing college ask me to go for interview. My mum chooses this college, which is the college that I study now… For the second time in my life I go to KL, this time is for the interview. I also didn’t know have to wear formal cloths, I just wear my t-shirt n jeans to go interview. I still remember, they ask me lots of question n my principle say I tomboy cause of the way I dress. N I accept it... haha... After interview only my dad notice n forgets that I should wear formal cloths… haha... What lar…

After 1 week when I working morning shift at factory, my mum suddenly call me n tell me the good news… yeah, I get it…

So my life totally change after I enter this college… still remember, I homesick for 1 months. Every night I call my mum, after that I will cry under my blanket… pity me… its normal what, first time leave my home, my mum, my bro n sis n dad..

When I in semester 1, I had 3 good friends… four of us are different races… all of the people here in this college know about us n jealous about our relationship… this is also the 1st time I had good friends n I really appreciate them… but it also didn’t last long, here, I would like to tell 3 of u that I still treat u as my friend n hope u all will forgive me if I did something wrong before n I still love 3 of u.. I really appreciate our relationship but until now I really don’t know what make us break up n become enemy… But at least now ok already, 3 of us still friends… just normal friends, not more than that...

I don’t have much close friends now, so u all can find me at room only because it’s the only place I will be, not at their room any more. Sad to say n hard to forget the relationship…

Now, i’m happy as a ‘unicell’… no more best friends in my life n my heart… Cry also no use; they won’t be the same person that I know because people will change...