Last day of semester 6

After my Emergency & Disaster test, lucky its mcq, if not I will die on the spot because I didn’t prepare for this time de test (busy with Research & Management project).

Next is our evaluation time… My beloved tutor, Ms H said that want us to go to MPH (multipurpose hall) to express our feelings through the evaluation. 64 of us take a chair and make a big round so that can see each other.

1 by 1 told and share their 3 years experience in this college. Some of them cried, it’s normal what, girls… Then its my turn now, I said something and all of them laugh, yea, I thank to my principle and those tutors that choose me when I came here to interview, and I told them that I appreciate all of my group girls, especially my tutors… Besides that, I did mention about my ex-best friends, sad sad sad…

30 minutes later, is 1 of my ex-best friend turn, she did mention my name, that time I drinking water, suddenly all of them look at me because she mention my name, I also get shock, what lar… She said : “ I know im a hot temper, every time Lainny come to me and keep disturb me, joking with me, kacau me when I study, I scolded her( me), so here I want to say sorry to her.” I don’t mind that she scold me, because its my fault keep disturb her and cari pasal with her, >.< I didn’t meant anything, because I just want to release her stress, that’s why I kacau her… ( ^^!!!)

The other ex-best friend also mentions my name again. This time more worst. Hahaha…
She said she wont forget and thank me because always disturb and kacau her at class. That 1 is true, because I sat beside her, always try to make her awake but at last I get scolded by her, pity me wei… But any how, I really love my ex-best friends…

After she end her speech, I asked my Tha
Tha, until now, the end of the semester I also
Didn’t and can’t find out why they leave me and
break the relationship that had build from the 1st
day I came to this college until semester 3. Tha
Tha said I different with them (in character). For
me is ok, that time even though I had bf, but I still
go out with them, and always stick to each other.
Maybe it’s the reason why we break off. Tha Tha
also said that if she didn’t know about me or be

friends with me, she will think that im a very open
minded and always go clubbing that type of girl.
What lar… After she close to me, she know that
Im a ‘naughty’ girl. Whatever... Haiz...

She always get scolded by me, for example
what had happened yesterday evening. I already
tired & sleepy +++, she ask me to accompany her
go old town to cut her hair. After reach there, we
had our dinner 1st at mamak stall then we go to a
saloon. After gao dim she cut her hair (she not
satisfied with d hair cut) I want to go to Cherry
Cake House buy my Shin Chan de small cake Rm2.70 to celebrate alone tomorrow after my test. (What to do, alone/ single is like that de lar).

Then go back to our hostel, at the lift she said she lost Se lost her key and can’t find it. What the… Then both of us have to walk to the old town again, Haiz… Search for the key like treasure hunt, wu liao… Cant find all the place that we had pass by of stop, the result is bo… She already gan jiong because have to pay Rm50 if lost the key. Reached or hostel, at the waiting lobby there, she asked juniors that on duty there whether they saw her key bo, yea, its at the table.. What the what the… I told her next time I’ll look after her key and phone every time go out with her, hope it wont happen again… She really qian da... >.<

O ok, come back to the evaluation thing, after the last person finished her speech, our mentor came and told us a bad news. She going to leave us and will go to Middle East to work and earn money there for her degree and family. So good that her husband will allowed her to work there, this kind of husband hard to find ho… Majority of us cried, including me and her, we wish her have a safe journey and good luck in her future. She still young, around 35 years old, had 3 sons if I not mistaken. She give us lots of advice before she went back home. We won’t forget her that we had voted her as BEST SMILE TUTOR and she won during the College Nite. Yea, that’s our beloved Mentor who take care of us from the 1st day we came until now…

After that, we all hugging each other, I saw my ex-best friend, she told me that she will remember me, and I hug her… owh... T.T

I still at this hospital 5 years, after that I also will plan want to go Arab to earn money and further my study. Its better that I don’t have bf or husband before I finished my Degree and so on. But who knows, God will plan everything, maybe I get married after my diploma (I hope it won’t happen)… So that’s my objective and hope that I can full fill it.

I’m sorry

I really felt so sorry to 3 people in my life…

1st is my mum, I know I didn’t something that she don’t like (have a bf during this nursing course). But im sure she already know about it, she just kept quiet. After she sees my result, she didn’t say anything because maybe she thinks that if I got bf, it also won’t affect my result and study.

2nd person is my 1st bf, imagine that, he love an 85kg girl that fat and the face accumulate with pimples and all. Yea, I really appreciate him a lot. He is the 1st guy make me want to change and give me a lot of support. He is also the only guy give me flowers and all the things that I like (im not a material girl), he really love me, until 1 day, I break up with him because of few reason.

After that, until now I still remember how I try to make him hate me and won’t contact me. I feel bad for myself, he really a good guy.Until 1 day, he added me in Friendster (after I & ½ year) and we chat through msn, happy and glad that he became a successful chef.

The 3rd person is my latest bf, he really treats me well until already plan want to marry me, but at last I choose to let him go. I feel that he really too good to me, or maybe he wanted to marry me ASAP, I can’t do it, cause I still want to further my study and earn lot of money for my family.

Yea, I can’t do that and I don’t want to marry too early…So that’s all for now…

Uptown girl Vs Downtown girl

<-- Downtown Girl

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dis pic consider Uptown girl gua

What I know about Uptown girl? After I came here to study, then only I know the difference between Uptown girl and Downtown girl.

The biggest difference for me is they will waste lot of money on those things that they shouldn’t buy. Agree? They didn’t know how hard to earn money. And they spending their parent’s money like their parents own 1 bank, I can’t do that, really…

Maybe not all, but can see most of them are like that. In 5 hours, they can spend more than rm3000. Crazy, really crazy…

For uptown girls, all also must be branded, must have lots and lots pairs of sandals, high heels, cloths, dress, jeans, make-up stuff and many more. Make-up, yuck, I hate it…

I have a good example here; I won’t tell who she is. Haiz…

God oh God, and some more, I cant say already, I and she totally different. I’m rather become a Downtown girl more than Uptown girl…

She taught me must buy this type of cloths bag and other things. For me it’s really fan (make my brain crack), have to think this or try this and that, if the cloths not nice must change it and bla bla bla… Wasting my time… Wear anything that you feel comfortable, am I right?

Ya, that’s what I’m going to do after this, I don’t care what she will tell me, as long as I’m happy with it.

Beside that, I wondering... ( it’s out of the topic ok…)

I’m wondering; why some people, I mean a girl (uptown girl) after break up, still receive any gift from her ex-bf, such as expensive or latest 3G phone, branded or limited perfume, and many more? Duhh… What lar… I really wont agree what the particular girl do, I know lar the guy got lot of money (I’m not jealous ok), but you should have a little honour? Right?

That guy also 1 kind, the girl (ex-gf) say like this or like that then really go and buy for her. I know that guy still love her, but the problem is the girl didn’t love or like him from the 1st time they become bf and gf. I pity that guy, really…

That girl can say that didn’t really experience like what I had experience before. I’m very glad and happy that my parents teach me how to be a better person, and teach me how to save money (that’s the most important). So seriously I’m a kiamsap (I guess is kedekut gua) person. Hehe…

Erm… until now, maybe I will continue my story later… about Uptown girl Vs Downtown girl.

Thanks 4 reading my blog… >.<

Love u… >.<

About friendship again.............

Joo Joo and me ( my 18th birthday )

Today, Joo Joo seems like got problem, cause she didn’t talk much at class and her face show that she not happy. So as usual, I turn over and kacau her and Tha Tha… I can feel that she have a problem with her best friends, I guess so…

Friends friends friends...

They bring you happiness and sometimes will hurt you. Ya, for those who had their best friends, I hope that you all can appreciate them and don’t let your buddies disappointed.

I guess her problem same like mine, think back past 2 years, ya, its same…

I don’t understand why girls like to fighting or arguing or always gossip with other people and many more. I can see that lots of my male friends won’t have any problem with their best friends, why girls cannot? Is it because our some kind of genetic is not the same and it really make a big different between boys and girls.

I also a girl, but a bit more tomboyish. Now I still keep in touch with my primary and secondary school mates, most of them are guys. My mum knows about it and she didn’t say anything because she knows I won’t like them (I guess only).

Every time I go back my hometown, or when I having my annual leave or CNY leave, my best friend, Mr. A will call me or message me and ask me out yum cha. But every time also I will say the same answer : my mum not allow lar, or I’m busy help my mum do something and more. Actually my mum wants me to go out, but no way, I rather spend my day with my mum, bro and sis. My family is more important than myself. Friends or boyfriend we can find, but our family… Ya, I’m sure you know what I mean…

Ok, come back to my friend de problem… haiz…

You can’t do anything if some one doesn’t want to listen to you or she/they suddenly ignore you. I tell you, it really hurt… You will feel even more hurt if u put 100% trust on them, trust me…

So I advice her, just let it be, and just be yourself. They/ she not really understand you and the person will regret one day after what she had done to you. After that, she ok a bit already. I’m happy that she can laugh and smile like usual with me, my Yang Yang and Tha Tha.

I also happy that my mum understand me that I got lot of male friends, at least she not like my dad that wont allow me to talk with other guys… haiz…
I’m still her little girl… What to do…

2/3/09

I swear I wont apply any nail polish on my finger nail already, very embarrassing… some more 1st time I colour my finger nail, look like a ghost as what some one commented on me. Haiz…

Yea, 2day at class super duper tired, In pain and sleepy, I got reason 1, it is because I’m weak start from yesterday maybe until 5 days later. Get what I mean?

After I remove the nail polish, I went back to my class, my tutor give assignments again, need to finished it this Saturday and present it. Its really crazy and I already tired go here go there just want to buy my formal cloths, high heels and the skirt just for our research & management presentation. Crazy...

My tutor in charge said our result will come out this evening, but see see she ffk us, said 2mr only will give us. So we wait and see…

Joo Joo, Tha Tha and I really hope that we can pass our test. And I and Tha Tha promise God that if we pass, we will fasting for 5 days. Hope God will fulfill our wish…

I’m going back this Saturday, miss my family, already 1 month didn’t go back and hug my mum…

Oh ya, if I pass my test, I will fasting 5 days, want to eat my tomyam with my ex-room mate! That’s the most important thing… But I also hope can celebrate with my frens. Hope that my friends will free on that day and ask me out/ date. haiz... if im alone also no problem, i still have my 'hubby' 2 hug and sleep with it. Lolz...

Be a Class rep again

For the second time, I have been nominated to become class rep on next 4 month, wtf……..

I hate to be a class rep, you know why, because I will very stress in handling my 63 of my group girls and its not a easy job to control them. I cry once that time on last dec at my class because they all not pay attention to me and didn’t cooperate among our self. Most of them…

When I become a class rep, I will be stricter and will try my best to be a responsible and reliable leader of my Group63. On that month I really stress, one of the reason is my assistant leader also didn’t cooperate and help me. Lucky I still have few friends that help me and give emotional support to me. If not, everyday sure I will cry (behave like a little girl, haiz…)

1 day, my tutor leave us at demo room and ask us to practice some nursing procedures and stay back until 5pm. After that I found out got some / few of them not inside the demo room, so my face turned red and I shouting at them ask them to silence ( shut up—because that time they all very noisy). I take 1 by 1 their attendance and list out those not there. Got 5 people are not there, so I jus simply said that I will report the tutor. After I go back to my room, this people see knock my door and tell me reasons why they not there. I just accept it and that’s the last chance for them.

My friends can’t believe that I really look very fierce when I give instruction or tell any announcement in front of them. I also can’t believe it…Is it true that a Leo (im 1 of them) really have a good leadership. Is it?

I know that if I’m not strict, they all won’t follow what I said. So I must do the ‘hard’ way not the ‘soft’ way. I’m very fierce when I handle or control them (just same like my dad how he control me when I was young age that time >.<).

When I was the class rep that time, on that month got my final test3 and my practical exam (both also very important exam in my semester5), some more it’s the 1st time I become a leader for such a big group. Can’t imagine it, really stressful month for me. But lucky my result for both exams also OK…

The unbelievable part is, when my class had an open evaluation, everyone have to stand up and talk about how’s our semester5. When it’s my turn, the first word I said is ‘SORRY’, and than I told them that: “im sorry if I hurt your feeling when I became class rep, I know I’m very strict to you all, but hope you all forgive me.”

After finished our oral evaluation, everybody give a hug to each other, and im very happy that they all said im a good leader. My nose kembang ad… duhhh…

Another thing is when my tutor in charge sees me personally to take my semester5 evaluation, she wrote comment at my report said im a responsible leader, walau, whole night I can’t sleep wei…

So now, on June, Class Rep again…Lucky I only in-charge of Assuntarian (27 people only). Majority of them will corporate with me, hope so and wish me good luck den.

On the end of June is the most important test (Government test). See, this time also got exam, errr…

Its ok, I think I will think positively and will try my best to ‘control’ them again.

Friends Vs Alone Vs Tomyam?

Is it friends very important in someone’s / a human’s life?

Maybe 80-90% of people in the World will answer friends is very important in their daily life. For me, now, in my room alone, my room mates all gone out to find their friends, left me alone with my ‘square hubby’, my Shin Chan comics, my doraemon and my laptop.

While listening to Britney’s the same song ‘Break the Ice’ continuously shake my head and body, the song repeated until now (OMG, something wrong with me ad), I think, is it necessary I go out from this room and look for my group mates and chit- chat or do other things with they all?

Noooooooooooooo… its ok I think, I can roll on my bed, or I read my comics that haven’t finish read all, or listen to techno songs, or practice to sing my favorites songs, or I should do my past year N-CLEX questions preparation for my government test on end of June, or I should sit down properly than I pray for all of my group girls hope our test 3 all 100% pass and also the Government test (I usually got pray de lar before I sleep), or I should watch the drama that I ad repeat it >50 times.

At last, my 2 room mates came back ad. My Chinese room mate feel want to eat burger, so she ad decide will help me buy 1 special burger. My other Punjabi room mate give suggestion wana watch doesn’t know what title of a Thai ghost movie. So she went up to level 8 borrow the DVD from my Malay friend. I still on my bed writing this blog. See see, talk bout her now she came back ad, not Thai movie, is ‘Congkak’. Haiz… Sure I’m the only 1 will scream n shout n hug my ‘square hubby’ later when I watch with them.

Wait wait wait, am I talking bout Friends Vs Alone? I don’t think so… hehe… sorry, out of topic, forgive me ya…

Ok, for me friends is important, but we sometimes also need to be alone (not 24 hrs alone, then the people will become sot2 ad). And for sure now I didn’t have and I don’t think so I want BEST friends, its not the time yet and maybe after I become a staff nurse than only I can find a true best friend, hope so…

What the… my lips dry up ad… haiz… so after you all finished read my blog, please go and drink water then only continue do your stuff k… Guai…

I want to eat tomyam…………….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok ok, so now I wana eat my burger and watch the congkak and hug my ‘square hubby’…

Thanks 4 read my wu liao de blog…